Well fuck me what a week!
I’ve been back at work for nearly 4 months now, 3 of those I spent working part time.
Since going on maternity leave my hubby got himself a new job ..,,
This new job means lots of away trips – most weeks …
It was easy to cope with when I was on Mat leave because I was just a Mum – things are very different now though, I’m back at work – full time.
I can’t afford not to work full time, I HAVE to. There is no part time option. This is mainly because we want a nice house in a nice village & to create a nice life for our kids.
Just lately, it’s been very difficult for me to try & balance the home/work thing. It’s terribly difficult & I’m not the kind of person that moans on about how difficult it is to balance life & work but it’s kinda come to a head.
I just can’t do it.
I feel so desperate, that somehow I’m failing my family that I can’t do it, that I made my bed I need to lie in it.
My family is everything – my every waking moment is geared up to provide a good life for them – just sometimes things get on top of you y’know.
I feel really quite down just now but I’m sure it’ll get better – it’s got to.
I live & breathe so that my children have a nice life. I don’t like to moan about my. “lifestyle choices” but sometimes, just sometimes it does some good …..